Hard Decisions

I'm sure we all have come across times in our lives when we have had to make a difficult decision. Whether that was financially, which university to attend, relationships or even which restaurant to eat at. Whatever the decision that was made, it can alter what our future may hold, but what I have been reminded of is that I'm not in control.

God has a way of working in mysterious ways; ways that I will never fully understand or comprehend. He has a way of teaching me lessons that at the time I don't want to be taught, but in the end I always take something away from it. Today I had to make a hard decision in my life, that I knew would determine my future. I cried...a lot. But it didn't stop me from seeking God any less because I knew he had his reasons. Last night I was physically on my knees crying out in prayer to God asking him to help me. I couldn't make these decisions on my own. I opened up my Bible in hope of finding something that would scream to me so I knew that God's Spirit was in my room holding me in my times of confusion and worry. I did the blank open the Bible to a page sorta thing hoping that what was on that page said something awesome and powerful. Apparently it worked, because what I read in Lamentations 3 gave me a new light.

In Lamentations, a lot of the verses are surrounded on sorrow, pain, fear, etc, but despite all the sorrow and crying and fear, God was present, His compassion and love never failed. We are not swallowed in our sin and darkness, but the Lords faithfulness and love is new every morning. Though I may not know what my future holds within the next few months or even year, I will wait on the Lord with all my heart. I may not understand the grief and tears at the moment, but God will never fail to fulfill those promises he has made to me.

Lamentations 3:19-26, 31-32
"I remember how I suffered and wandered. I remember how bitter my life was. My spirit is very sad deep down inside me. But there is something else I remember and it gives me hope. The Lord loves us very much. So we haven't been completely destroyed. His loving concern never fails. His great love is new every morning. Lord, how faithful you are! I say to myself, 'The Lord is everything I will ever need, so I will put my hope in Him.' The Lord is good to those who put their hope in Him. He is good to those who look to him. it is good when people wait quietly for the Lord to save them...The Lord doesn't turn his back on people forever. He might bring suffering, but he will also show loving concern. How great his faithful love is!"